I was stuffing myself, getting ranch bleu cheese and buffalo sauce all over my fingers, face, lips and socks (sometimes I use them as a napkin). I talked to a few of my elders (college grads/friends). Ok truthfully, they're the same age as me, they're just not fifth years like me. I'm special, in the slow sorta way. Tim and Chris. They were telling me how different this "real" world is. MAn I hate that term "real." Cause I don't think College is fake. But whatever. One has a great job. The other one just got a job, but its taken him a while. Both say they miss college. These guys are not 30. I think they might be younger than me. Am I going to miss college immediately after? Cause I'm kinda tired of being the creepy fifth year who should've finished already.
This semester I'm taking mostly upper division, important journalism classes. They're entertaining, and useful. I got the internship I've been wanting for 3 semesters. And now all I can do is wonder what's next after May 16th? I want to say South America, Europe or back to Australia to marry someone. I doubt it. Marriage is too scary. I just want citizenship. But no, I'm going to the country of slave-work and loan-paying. But where? San Diego? Delaware? Omaha? I think not. Aaron wants me to go to Orange County. Who knows. I guess all I can do is plan for the future but Tim told me once that the only thing we have is NOW. I've heard it before. But for some reason it rang true when he said it. So I know. All I have is right now. Right now to make the best out of life. Right now to seize the moment. Right now to .... go sit on the couch and wish I hadn't eaten 18 wings.
